I have a gun pointed at your skull and a shovel...

You think she's merely an object to you?!
Just something to brag to everyone?!
Well if you think that's her purpose for you
Then Prepare to die very soon

You hurt her like your always in control
You cage her like a trapped animal
Is there something wrong with your brain?!

When you hurt her
You always plead for forgiveness acting like you were the one played
Over and over again this scene plays
Just like re-runs

Out of all she has done for you
what have you done for her in return?!
your relationship lasted for more than a year
yet in between those months
Instead of loving her, you love someone who is not even in this country

Now it's over and she's free from the likes of you
I'm going to her shield, her dagger
If you even think that you could play with her heart like that
I'll shoot you, literally I'll shoot you with a gun
and bury your carcass in a huge pile of garbage

I pity the fools like you...

Crying won't help you...

I know it hurts when you remember the past
I know its hard to forget those precious moments
But don't even think I'm going to leave you like that
I'll be on your side no matter what happens

Stop crying when you remember those images
Crying won't help you heal
nor help you fix something that is already over

Just move on and forget him
I know he's a total moron for loving you but at the same time cheating you
He's a total moron for not appreciating you
He says he loves you but on the contrary he just wants to hurt you

We still have a dream
more like a goal
to attain the title of an 8 letter word
A goal that will need us to go through hell to attain

Don't even think your alone
I'm here, They're here, all of us are here for you
You say it hurts? heck we'll cry with you
If you really want, we'll kill that moron anytime you want

If you cry until a river is made,
Build a bridge
and get over it

Life is hard
many commit suicide
many die so young
But some perseveres to succeed...

Misunderstandings can kill, avoid it :D

Have you ever been judged wrongly because they didn't understand the idea of what you say?
It really pisses you off, doesn't it?

I myself was judged this week by a person who always uses his mouth before his mind

Remember my post "The Price of Hardwork"?

Well I guess he didn't understand the line "So I bid farewell to the people I once called friends"
Well just for him, I'll give the idea

First, the people I'm trying to point out with that line as a group of people composing of 5 persons (6 if you include me)

Here's their first three letters of their surnames so we can get this straight. I have a strong feeling the criticizer knows this people. They are Bab, Bon, Jar, Juc, Sum.
Now you know them?

Secondly, It's not hard trying to forget them since I only met them for a very short time (shorter than two years to be exact)
Those memories, yeah I can't forget it but because of the short time we had, They're not enough to make me regret my decision

Lastly, Why do you feel like I know you? Your not even a friend of mine. Heck your barely an acquaintance to me.
The only thing I know about you is your name and that's all.

So don't even think your something precious or something sentimental because to me, your just wind.

Ignoring the biological needs just for a person...

I was really an all nighter the last night
I spent the night just chatting with my friend

We first started talking about the our new section, 1-8
and by the time you know we were already talking about
the reasons why we joined 1-8

I first told her how sad it will be for me
knowing only a single face in a class that will be in reality very large
She told me that it will be alright
and that the only reason she joined was for me...
I was surprised at her saying that...
After a few seconds i answered that
I joined 1-8 just for her...
She smiled, I smiled, We laughed

She then told me that her best friend has a chance to be my seatmate
since his surname is "Olalo" while mine was "Ona"
I said that I'm just fine with that
Then I joked saying if she could remove a part of her surname
for her to be close to us
She laughed and I laughed, We once again laughed for a while

Then I asked her another question saying that
if she laughed in public so loud that everyone stared at her
A pause then she replied with a yes with a matching laugh
Then she asked me the said question, I also replied with a yes and a matching laugh

In our conversation I realized that I was the only one with the questions...
did she realize that I was trying to know her more and more?
was she getting the hint that I was trying to win her affections?
She didn't seem to be bugged by my questions so I continued

Then out of the blue I asked her if she believed in befriending professors
She laughed and said in a loud voice "NEVER!!"
I laughed with her and also said no when she returned the question

Finally she asked me a question
for me I think she was asking a random question
but maybe there was something but I just ignored whatever it is
she asked me how long was the flight to california from manila
I replied with the answer 15 hours and 50 mins (got that from a website)

Our conversation continued with random questions
some were funny questions while some were sad

after some time
I asked her if she was sleepy
she said no
she returned the question
I said a little bit but I'll hold
she changed her primary pic
I liked that pic
It was so different from the others

we continued with our chat
and asking one another if we were tired from time to time

Then finally a serious question popped up from her
She asked me if I were scolded by my parents
I said ofcourse
and told her about a time when I was seriously scolded
what I told her was a really sad story
we just shook the sadness with laughs, lots and lots of laughs

Finally I asked her if she was tired
she said a little and then returned the question
I said yes

We bid our goodnights
she logged out
a few seconds later I logged out
It ended.

Goddnight ^_^

Pre Sectioning day: day of hell

Finally got home from school today
and I have to say this say sucks(well not all of it but some part of it does suck)

So I went to school earlier at 8 am.
I first texted my friend if she was already there,
she said she's close.
So I went inside the Engineering building
and found two billboards, both contained schedules for the second semester
one is for the first year students and the other for the sophomores.
I found no familiar face so I just looked at the schedules.

After looking at some of the schedules (which I didn't really memorize)
I finally saw a familiar face, it was Ton, a block mate of mine.
He asked me where are the others, I said I didn't saw anyone yet.
We continued to chat until he found some of our block mates.
When he asked me to go to room 201 with the others to get the clearance
I refused and said I was still waiting for my friend

The time was already 8:30 and still no sign for her
so I went to room 201 and found a significant number of my block mates
We went inside along with the other sections who were also going to get their clearance
When it was 8:45, she finally texted me where I was and that she was at the lobby
I told her to wait. I left my bag in the custody of one of my block mates and went down the lobby
There I saw her looking also at the schedules and I talked to her for a short while.
She asked me to join the class of 1-8.

I could never forget the class of 1-4, never.
But the schedules were a little tight for we have 4 math subjects
for the second semester and I wanted a little break.
When I returned to room 201 I found that my block mates increased in number
and that we were next to get our clearance. I took mine and went straight to room 208
to greet her. There she asked me if I received my clearance, I said yes, she asked if there are any failures. I said "none" though I never got a look at my clearance because I quickly placed it inside my bag. When she said she was going to look at the schedules, I said ok and saw her with her best friend walk with her down the stairs. Afterward, I finally looked at my clearance and guess what... no failures!!!

I returned downstairs and saw her looking once again at the schedules.
I asked her what section are we going to pick, she said 1-5.
I asked why not 1-8, she said the english was under ms. devil (I am not going to tell her real name ofcourse)
I said with a happy voice "sure!"

I strayed at the campus until it was quarter to 11.
11 was the time of pre sectioning
I went inside the Eng'g bldg., went up the stairs until the third floor
when I reached the third floor, HELL STARTED.

The first thing I said was "shit!"
We were packed like god damned sardines!!
And the air, the air reigned supreme as the air of death
The air smelled like fart, underarm sweat, bad breath, and a lot more things that I do not know what their english term is.
We were packed for quite a number of minutes until faculty members started to emerge from the stairs.
though, they really wasn't any help since the doors were locked.

We were screaming like idiots
some said "Wowowee na!!" others said "Baho!!" while some said "Sunog!!!"
as if the air wasn't enough, the screams were also pissing us off more and more
The air now has a different effect, my chest hurted while in the crowd.
finally the doors of 305 oppened people went rushing in like escaping from a Bull in mexico.
the only screams I heard were "PUSH!!!!!!!"

While Inside, we were still packed like sardines but in a much smaller compartment
I saw the paper for 1-8 which me and my argued and finally got a conclusion to what section to get
me and one of my blockmate signed our names, student number, and our signatures and left without a care in the world
Finally I can breathe again
The rest of my block mates were still their packed, signing their infos on the paper for 1-7
While looking at them I saw their faces dropping with sweat while pushing to sign at the paper
I felt guilty not joining them :(

Finally we rested at class 306 which were unoccupied
at the end,

The class of 1-4 was divided to pieces
some went to 1-3, some to 1-7, we went to 1-8, another team went to 1-9, and the Chemical Engineering students were still going to sign in for other sections tomorrow

God my chest still hurts a little
well I'm off to rest for a while...

Listening to Classics...

Listening to classics back
when I was still little,
the first thing I always say is
"I don't like old songs, change the song!"

but now when I hear classics
I say this
"You change the song, you die"
Guess there's always time to listen to oldies

Back in high school
the kind of songs I usually
listen to are rock, alternative rock, metal, etc.
I don't like listening to R&B, or other mellow songs

Now, I guess it's the other way around
*Damn, I'm getting hooked at earth, wind & fire*
I'm starting to love their songs
guess disco was cool after all

When listening to my old type of favorite songs,
the ideas I usually have are very sad, yes very sad
*Thanks a lot silverstein!*
now, when listening to other genres
my thoughts are more open
and because of that I get more ideas to write about :D

Well as we go on, we really tend to change
our looks
our voice
our way of thinking
heck even our beliefs


Well' I'm off
Goodnight to all readers ^^

A feeling of happiness with a touch of sadness

I'm your friend... that's a fact
I will be always at your side
If your happy, I'll smile with you
If your sad, I'll cry with you
If your angry, You can take all your anger at me
I'll always support you no matter what
though someday I want us to become more than that...

We had a chat earlier in YM :P....
talking about past relationships
She misses her ex but she tries to get over it
She asked me about my ex... I said I already got over her
Though I still miss her but not that much...

With those words she told me...
I feel I got to meet her more
While talking to her, I was looking at her primary picture
I'm starting to get hypnotized by that face...
Seconds feels like minutes when I look at her...
I'll put what I feel about her in this lyric

"So when I see you, you know all the things I've done
and I am blinded
Like I'm staring at the sun
When I see you...
When I see you...
When I see you...
It's like I'm staring at the sun! Yeah!"
- from the song Blinded by Third Eye Blind

I told her a story about me when I tried
to court a girl from my class
who wasn't really pretty but her smile hypnotizes me also...
I tried to court her but I stopped for unknown reasons (I still ask myself why... Why?)
Then after some months I was surprised to find that the girl has a...
well let's just say she found Romeo...

after telling that story, She asked me if I was hurt
I told her to that I'm fine... She smiled...
even if she smiles in terms of emoticons... I still feel that special feeling....
Then She had to go... maybe because she was going to school tomorrow at 7am
She tried to ask me this question...
" :{} what's this?
:{} what's this?"
I told her I don't know
She said Pringles... I laughed.... made me smile :D
She said bye.. the chat ended

For now I want us to be the best of friends...
To be here at times of need to either
cheer you up or just to give you company
But... as time passes by... well I'm just hoping
for the best...

What a long post eh?
Goodnight to all :D...

1st sem down, 9 hells to go...

Well it's over
1st semester I mean
after months of nothing but study study study and of course a little DoTa

Though a lot of things really doesn't want me to proceed
one of those things is the very owning "English"
yes, our english subject is owning us

Besides the very difficult tests in which only 1 to 5% of the class pass
the passing score is 70% of the score!!
You feel you could do better?

All I wanted is a little break
from life's challenges like work, useless friends (names are not included), and of course those pimple giving stress T_T
Yet I'm lucky I still go on even though Life's problems are heavy

Hope I could last until graduation
Now one more problem is about her...
Nah!! Forget about it
what I need now is to always smile ^_^

Tomorrow is... WTF!! consultation day!!
well maybe I could pass English if I talk to the prof.

"Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love"
-from the song I'm Yours by Jason Mraz

You gotta hear the remix of the song especially the chipmunks version, It's so cute ^_^

Well I'm Off

The last week of the first semester

Damn!
Time goes so fast
Feels like only yesterday when I was just taking the USTET
now... it's already the end of the 1st semester.

Not to mention that the only thing
we will do this week is answering
mind numbing, bloody tests
after this week only goodbyes are heard...

It's so sad saying goodbye so fast
just when you thought you was getting along with them,
you already have to say goodbye
to the friends you have met for just a short time.

well I guess it can't be helped
that's college life
it's not easy in the process
but the reward's worth it

I just hope that in the next semester,
She'll be my classmate....

this is the last post for this week
because studying I must once again suffer
anyways
good luck to my fellow classmates
lets not get left behind in the tests
lets show those damn professors our potential... :D