Ego to blame.

It's the one who curses people day by day.

It's the one that wishes it had the capabilities beyond others.

It's the one that doesn't want to accept its own defeat.

It's the one that has a pride larger than any great wall.

It's the one that messes with your mind.

It's your ego and it can destroy your life.

Before, never did I thought that my life was ruled by my own ego.

Never giving a care to the ones I hurt.

Ignoring the ones who asked for help.

Criticizing anyone who made mistakes.

Justifying that my own mistakes should be correct.

I ignored my own wrongdoings and went on with my life.

Letting my own stupidity rule over my acts and thoughts.

Now that I finally managed to look behind the path I made, I see nothing but chaos.

On one side are the people that curses me to death.

On another side are the people I used for my own purposes without giving anything back or at least my own gratitude.

And finally, I look back on the people I've hurt so much.

I used to think that they we're the ones who hurt me first.

I gave myself a reason to hate them back not knowing that all this drama was the product of my own mind.

I hated them through ignorance, ignoring them as if no one occupied the space in front of me.

Never giving a care if my ignorance also hurt them back.

But thanks to that kid, that smiling kid, my ego crashed like a plane falling from the heavens above.

Giving me a taste of how painful can the gods hammer be.

And I waked up from a long trance.

A nightmare that played for years.

Although I can never swallow my own pride, with a little help, I broke it down without any hesitation.

The ego that smiles with the sight of chaos is no more.

All the stupidity I've done, all the pain I've caused, all the chaos I've commited, all of them I completely apologize for.

And though you may never want to forgive me as long as your soul exists, just grant me one wish and don't do what I've done to you...