In the midst of paranoia

Isn't it annoying when you start suspecting your family?
Doesn't it make you enraged when you start distrusting friends?
Well I do
and it's eating my mind

It's like the final option when you just don't know who to blame
When everyone pretends to be the innocent
When everyone puts on the mask of innocence
Until you start losing trail of the perpetrator

Simple mishaps that casually occur in you
When it pisses you to a boiling point
You start blaming your loved ones for your own errors
Pointing every detail of your own stupidity and blaming it on the unsuspecting

When you are blamed for something you are clean
Even when you try everything
Just to prove your innocence
It just seems that the odds are against you
And no matter how much words are spoken
And no matter how much pleads are given
And as you kneel as your last resort
You are still blamed
You receive a punishment that was uncalled for
And as your pulled to your own cell
You see the one who blamed you laughing
And you see everyone around you bowing
And everything becomes clear
They know your innocence and yet they kept silent

When you are humiliated
You are enraged
You feel that blaming is not enough
And as your vision darkens
Your own sanity turns into a berserker bent on pain
Hurting everyone around you
Until everyone is down on the floor bleeding
And as your sanity returns
You see the product of your own hands
And you thrust the final blow on yourself

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Everyone hates it when they are blamed for the stupidity of others
But everyone loves to blame others for their own misfortunes

Everyone thinks they know every way out of a tight spot
So they can avoid the punishment that they truly deserve

They're escapists of their own faults
They think of a way to come clean
They think of a way to hurt the innocent
They blame the unknowing of their own stupidity
Loved ones or Friends, there are no excuses for them
They'll blame them all as long they come clean

But the day of reckoning will come
And they'll receive it a thousand times worse
Not as a quick death
But as a long and painful torture
And as they scream for mercy
The punisher laughs and reveals his/her identity
As the once innocent that was blamed by the escapist

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Never will I give in to paranoia...