Did you ever wonder...

Did you ever wonder on why history was called history and not herstory?

Did you ever wonder that even though the female population outnumbers the men population, there is only a small number of women that lead?

Did you ever wonder why female writers we're so hard to find back then?

Did you ever wonder on why women wear stilletos even though it causes great pain?

Did you ever wonder on why the abbreviation "Ms." is changed to "Mrs." once she is married and yet the abbreviation "Mr." is not changed regardless of single or married?

Did you ever wonder why did the abbreviation "Mr." is always first instead of "Mrs." in invitations?

Did you ever wonder on what the world will be if it was led by women?

Did you ever wonder on why did man blame God for creating woman when they we're asked why they ate from the tree of knowledge?

So many questions left in my mind but all points to one reason.

Our world has been in utter chaos since the beginning.

Wars.

Corruption.

Unwanted deaths.

Destruction.

All of these happened under the rule of man.

When a man claims a higher position, he is praised.

When a woman claims a higer position, she must go through hell to even hear a single cheer.

Ever since the beginning, man has already claimed supremacy.

Ever wondered why it was called "Man and Woman" and not "Woman and Man"?

And for centuries, man has claimed the highest chair.

Throughout time, man has created outstanding marvels and claimed all glory for himself.

Man even created reasons and lies and contraptions to make him more supreme as ever.

I'm not going against my own gender or anything.

I'm just sharing on what I think.

You decide.

Oh yeah, did you know men created stilletos and not women?

And there is a special reason on why men love seeing women wearing stilletos.

And I'm not going to say why. Discover it for yourself.

Ego to blame.

It's the one who curses people day by day.

It's the one that wishes it had the capabilities beyond others.

It's the one that doesn't want to accept its own defeat.

It's the one that has a pride larger than any great wall.

It's the one that messes with your mind.

It's your ego and it can destroy your life.

Before, never did I thought that my life was ruled by my own ego.

Never giving a care to the ones I hurt.

Ignoring the ones who asked for help.

Criticizing anyone who made mistakes.

Justifying that my own mistakes should be correct.

I ignored my own wrongdoings and went on with my life.

Letting my own stupidity rule over my acts and thoughts.

Now that I finally managed to look behind the path I made, I see nothing but chaos.

On one side are the people that curses me to death.

On another side are the people I used for my own purposes without giving anything back or at least my own gratitude.

And finally, I look back on the people I've hurt so much.

I used to think that they we're the ones who hurt me first.

I gave myself a reason to hate them back not knowing that all this drama was the product of my own mind.

I hated them through ignorance, ignoring them as if no one occupied the space in front of me.

Never giving a care if my ignorance also hurt them back.

But thanks to that kid, that smiling kid, my ego crashed like a plane falling from the heavens above.

Giving me a taste of how painful can the gods hammer be.

And I waked up from a long trance.

A nightmare that played for years.

Although I can never swallow my own pride, with a little help, I broke it down without any hesitation.

The ego that smiles with the sight of chaos is no more.

All the stupidity I've done, all the pain I've caused, all the chaos I've commited, all of them I completely apologize for.

And though you may never want to forgive me as long as your soul exists, just grant me one wish and don't do what I've done to you...

Racism is bullshit.

Since the Engineering department had no classes for the past week, I burned my time doing nonsense.

While comitting to my nonsense, I found this game called (censored).

This is a Role Playing Game (RPG).

But not the kind of RPG wherein you slay an evil magical creature or fight endless battles using a huge sword and you never seem to die.

This type of RPG was like real life.

Real life as in you do what you do in your daily life.

Eat, get a job, sleep, and so on.

And one day, while playing in game, this scenario happens.

My character was waiting for a cab which seemed to never arrive.

And then, this guy pulls up in front of me and asks me if I want a ride.

Since I was pissed off waiting for the cab, I decided to accept his request.

While on the road, he asked me on my beliefs.

I asked him back on what kind of beliefs.

Was it about religion, government, or etc.

And he said government.

Before I could even reply to his question, he asked me If I believed in "white supremacy".

Being a guy that didn't want to be involved in complicated matters, I simply said "I don't know".

And then the scenario went worse.

He kept babbling about how he loves the "white supremacy".

I didn't know if he was still role playing or was he acting like a Nazi for real.

Because, I was so pissed off at his endless chatters, I said I believed in equality.

He suddenly stopped the car.

He asked me with anger if what the hell was I saying.

So I explained to that narrow minded racist that I believe in all races being equal and that no race should be claimed supreme or greater than the others.

He suddenly throttled the car and said I was a traitor of the white race.

And then he started another speech on how much a traitor I am.

I decided to just jump out of the car but he locked the doors.

I had no choice but to struggle his chatter.

And then he accelerated the car more.

Finally, he said people of my ideals should be killed and he went straight for a dead end.

Before the car slammed, he jumped out the door leaving me locked inside.

The car slammed at the wall and the car exploded.

And my character died.

The End.

Even in games, racism is still found on other people.

And this is the reason why wars never stop.

Here's a lesson for you, when someone who believes in a one race supremacy gives you a ride, just decline the offer. Even if you really know the person.

You'll never know if one day, you'll be found dead on a burning car.

Thoughts for the 1st week..

Previously, I cursed this schedule of mine.
Provoking war against every hour from 12 in the afternoon.
Blaming anyone that has no relevance to my cursed dilemma.
Pretty much, acting like a complete idiot.

First day.
Woke up at around 8 in the morning.
Ate an early lunch and did everything needed and left at around 10.
Back then when I had morning classes, Usually the climate was cold.
Now, I haven't even left the house and I'm already sweating.
Ignoring traffic, Ignoring the person smoking beside you during a jeepney ride, I arrived at about 11:30.
Pissed off to the highest point, I made my way inside the building.
First sight, giving out of fans that had writings about avoiding the flu and dengue.
Well that lowered my anger for a bit.
Still pissed, I went up the stairs while using the damn fan and sat at a bench until the cursed bell rang.
1st class, Literature. Led by a professor who likes to pose while teaching.
2nd class, no Prof.
3rd c;ass, no Prof. and so on.
After sitting at a chair for hours, I realized that this class was going to unleash all the layers of hell. And I gave a silent laugh. Disturbing isn't it?

2nd day.
1 Prof. showed up and no one came in the room until the day ended.
Wasted another day torturing my ass in a chair.
And then going home, a very clear idea came to me.
I'm cursed to never arrive home earlier than 7 in the evening. Sweet.

3rd day.
P.E. at about 7 in the morning.
The whole 2 hours was wasted with cheers and introductions.
Even now I wonder, why is it that I must always bring "6" balls and not any number less or more in Table Tennis? Does it mean I'm going to screw up for 6 times while playing? Cool.
9 up to 12, I wasted those hours in front of a computer.
Class started and there was an improvement.
2 Profs. showed up and then the day ended sitting again.
And the trip home took me "Four" god damned hours.

Current day,
2 profs showed up and I tortured my ass once again.
And I went ahead and bought myself a 2000 paged book. Thank you Physics.
Surprisingly, the trip home was relatively short.
Maybe I was given pity since everyone seemed to looked at my 2000 paged book.

Things I learned:
1. Keep your calm even though your group mates are complete lazy assholes.
2. Never make eye contact for a long time or don't make eye contact at all. Specially if someone didn't break eye contact for a long time. I'll never stare at her again.
3. Some Professors seem to have a blood compact with fellow Professors. Screw with one and you'll deal with an army.
4. Learn to love. Love a book I mean. Specially if that book is 2000 pages long. Happy reading.
5. Just laugh at the Prof's joke when he/she makes a dumb joke. Even if you want to throw him/her to the lowest layer of hell, Laugh.
6. Never "completely" trust someone's opinion. But I'm not saying don't trust me XD

Pretty much, I actually praised this dilemma of mine that I once cursed to the deepest layer of hell.
Interesting section, Interesting courses, disturbed professors, Oh we're heading for a good one.
Brace yourselves as all Armageddon unleashes.

Media's Retarded

It's been weeks since I watched the news.
It's probably because I'm not interested in watching the T.V. for now.
But what pisses me off is that the same news from weeks ago is still running up to now.

Yeap, it's that fucking sex scandal that seems to have no end.
For christ's sake people, don't you have anything better to do?
We're all tired of seeing that doctor, and his mom, and those other doctors in the T.V.
It just shows that the media would talk about sex rather than our country that is burning down to the ground.

And until now, the internet goes wild with those videos appearing from nowhere.

Another thing that the media loves to talk about is that H1N1 virus.
It's just a flu. It's not something to get crazy about.
All someone needs is quarantine if he's infected and he'll be fine.
It's not a virus worth going insane about.
When the media talk about it, it's like ARMAGEDDON is approaching.
For bullshit's sake, there are far more deadlier and more contagious viruses.
It's not like that the Spanish Flu who killed 50 to 100 million people suddenly went back to life.

Does the media even think about the upcoming elections?
They're treating it like nothing's going to happen.
With what's happening now, We rather have Erap as president again since no one really cares about whoever takes the presidential chair.

Final note,

The media would rather talk about sex and some weak virus rather than talk about pressing matters like the presidential elections or deadlier viruses like dengue specially with the rainy season we're experiencing.
What a lovely country we live in.
Now I'm thinking about Europe as the next best place to move in