Just some boredom...

If boredom hits my mind
then what better than write;
To write all senseless facts
in a wasted blank paper;

So lets start this off with a word
But what word is there to use;
There are thousands of words in the world
and yet i only need to use one;

I've got it!
I've thought a good opening;
Let's use the word just
cause everything is just;

Pretty catchy eh?
and yet what a stupid line;
Stupid yet catchy
the perfect plan of my mind;

Everyone says the world is just
but what does that really mean;
I for one knows what it mean
But wouldn't it take the fun if I told you right now;

So did I take enough of your space
or do I need to write more than this;
Should I try to write more of this?
and rot the remaining part of your brain;

Let's end this with one more stanza
so we could all hug our little beds;
So what word should I use to end all of this?
I've got it... we'll all call this poem "SHIT!!"

My view on society.

From once a place called paradise
We polluted and made hell
The once pure hearted souls of the past
Are now no different from the demons of hell

Day by day, our society breaks down
one by one we turn into God's reason to weep
Where are the modern saints now?
Have they been consumed already by the demons of society...

How could some people even have the courage to pray
If all they do beyond the church is no different from hell's minions
Not only have our Society been corrupted
But our own sense of justice has turned to the creed of sin

How could I even learn to trust someone
when the person beside me already wants to kill me
How can we be proudly called united
if every people in our society hates one another

War and corruption are the main goals of our world
to take lives and then lead with an iron fist on the remaining survivors
Our world slowly revolves around this concept
and also the main reason of our growing desperation

Pandora's box is now kept open
for all evil to wreak havoc in this world
But out of all this crap that we experience
Where is the hope that is supposed to come out last?

*Tired*

Standing on the ledge...

This month has been a slow one for me. So many cramming sessions but majority of those just ended up in futility. No matter how much hours you tried to pour all your blood, sweat, and tears at those equations, all failure awaited at the end.

Since Valentines Day, we were given a ton of school work and also a ton of mediocre tests. It seems I have the feeling of experiencing summer classes for the very first time. During my elementary and High School days, I usually receive if not very good, adequate grades but I never experienced failing a subject.

People around me act like summer classes are no big deal. For them, its no difference whether they add another few months for their 5 year majors. For me, its a huge deal. I have the kind of mentality that if I take summer classes, people will look down at me. I feel as if they will think of me as an idiot who failed 1 or 2 courses in his major. That is the reason why I never want to fail.

But how can one focus at his critical courses if he has to deal with other matters also? Wherein every course tries to move at the pace of the most difficult courses. How can one manage those kind of problems?

This is where I'm starting to think if this major is really not my calling. But shifting to other majors is not an option now. I'll just to face head on what kind of tortures will those professors give me.

So now I stand at this ledge. hundreds of feet from the ground. This is what will determine my unknown faith. If I fail, I will fall to the ground and splatting to a million pieces. If I pass, someone will pull me from the ledge and once again give me a fighting chance. But the idea of falling is already starting to solidify in my mind. Is this the end?

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Everything is moving at unparalleled speeds. I'm being left behind by them. Though I ask for a little boost, they won't even turn their backs... Even just for a little help...

What I did this Valentines.

Does it happen to you that every time your outside, you see a lot of couples? And the first thing you say is that you wished you also had someone to hug or hold hands with. Well I don't know about you but I was usually this kind of guy.

From my own house up to school, I always see a shitload of couples. They're everywhere! At first it was getting on my nerve since they really didn't give a care for the other people around them. It didn't matter if they stepped on your shoe or something because they really wound't give a damn about it. They'll just ignore you.

But from time to time, I always thought on what would be the situation if it was me with someone else. I always pondered on that idea. I never thought I would experience that thought. Until now...

Today is officially Valentines day. For the past few years, I always spent this day either with parents, friends, or just stay at home with the computer. But this time, I've experienced it with someone special. A first in my own history book.

Though we celebrated the day before valentines because she didn't want her parents to find out.

After the Engineering Showdown which was really AWESOME, we agreed to meet at Mc Donalds near F.E.U.
Although it was friday the 13th and a gum got stuck on my shoe earlier that day, it didn't matter for all my attention was on her. We first went to M.O.A where we had dinner and strolled along the bay. During our stroll, you wouldn't believe on how many people would sell you flowers. Eventhough I already bought her flowers, people insisted us to buy some more which ended to a night with her carrying a huge bouquet.
Before we went back to take her home, she insisted to drink some alcohol just for fun. To my surprise, when I was finishing a single shot, she was already finishing three! I got her home drunk as hell. It's hard to bring a drunk person home when she keeps slapping you in the face and insists on dancing at the middle of the road.
Luckily, when I got her home, her parents was out and her yaya was also on a date. Lucky us we had the house for ourselves though I just helped her lie on her bed and then I went home. HONEST! XD
I don't take advantage of drunk people. Seriously.

When I got home, she sent me a text message saying that she thanked for the night and another thanks that I didn't take advantage of her.

Probably not the best day but one of the most memorable. XD

Concocting Nonsense

So I was bored last night so I did something stupid.
I proclaimed Emo Sucks. Not that I have anything against them.
It was just a quick laugh that turned into more nonsense because of this conversation.

Ram Marc: Join the revolution! emos suck
adrian Tan: wahaha
adrian Tan: apply logic!
adrian Tan: define emo!
Ram Marc: emo (noun) - a whole new breed of morons
adrian Tan: kulang definition mo boy
adrian Tan: ahaha
adrian Tan: moron in what manner?
Ram Marc: haha pakidagdagan
adrian Tan: why?
adrian Tan: may logic na kayo?
adrian Tan: logic na subject
Ram Marc: wla pa.. alam q d kame magkakaroon nun eh
adrian Tan: imposible
adrian Tan: meron kayo nun!
adrian Tan: 2nd year ata
adrian Tan: basta astig yun!
adrian Tan: nakakamulat ng utak!
adrian Tan: promise!
Ram Marc: d q sure kc ung sa lumang courses alang logic ung major q
adrian Tan: mapapa "oo nga no!!!" ikaw
Ram Marc: d q lam sa bago
adrian Tan: aaaaah basta alam ko lahat ng nasa eng meron nun
Ram Marc: with logic, wrongs can be made from correct ones
Ram Marc: vice versa
adrian Tan: ang lupit ng logic na subject talaga..dami ko natutunan
adrian Tan: a word represents a picture
Ram Marc: blis kumple2hin mo ung definition
adrian Tan: people see different pictures because we are situated in the world
adrian Tan: emo....do we have the same picture?
adrian Tan: ano definition mo sa emo
Ram Marc: ala pa q solid na definition eh... mag iicp pa q ng definition na me magandang reasoning after gmawa algeb
Ram Marc: EMO, once a genre of music that transformed into a urban culture of stereotypes.
Ram Marc: la q maicp eh
adrian Tan: ah ok
adrian Tan: jan sa definition na binigay mo....stereotyping is not idiot
Ram Marc: naghahanap aq ng definition na pang urat sa iba haha
adrian Tan: idictic
adrian Tan: it's just pathetic
Ram Marc: then what do you propose?
adrian Tan: find a better definition that makes emos stupid
adrian Tan: like...suicidal
Ram Marc: EMO, once a genre of music that transformed into a urban culture of stereotypes of suicidal...
Ram Marc: what's a word to insert?
adrian Tan: morons
adrian Tan: wahahha
Ram Marc: nyeh
Ram Marc: qng ganun din lng edi gaguhin q na lang buong definiton
Ram Marc: *definition
adrian Tan: pricks?
adrian Tan: suicidal attention....something
adrian Tan: parang attention grabbing
adrian Tan: pero mas magandang term
Ram Marc: emo -suicidal morons
emo- suicidal pricks
emo- morons who attempt to commit suicide to attain individuality
Ram Marc: ano dyan?
adrian Tan: mali yung pangatlo
adrian Tan: hindi individuality
adrian Tan: so gain ATTENTION
Ram Marc: I see I see
Ram Marc: good point
adrian Tan: kasi...panong individuality...eh madami nga sila!
Ram Marc: uu nga naman
Ram Marc: @_@
adrian Tan: it's an entire culture!
adrian Tan: wahahaha
adrian Tan: sinasabi lng nila na individuality!
adrian Tan: para cool daw sila
Ram Marc: peo sa 22o ang dami nilang ganun
Ram Marc: stereotypes noh?
adrian Tan: pero sa totoo niyan...walang individuality sa pagiging emo!
adrian Tan: mas malala pa sila sa mga nag woworship ng trends
Ram Marc: If I have 2 choose... join a religion that worships rizal or be emo... I rather worship rizal
adrian Tan: i'd choose neither
adrian Tan: ahahaha
Ram Marc: alam mo ung religion na un
Ram Marc: ginawang Kristo c rizal hanep
adrian Tan: religion sucks!!!! logic rocks! wahahah
adrian Tan: nga pla
adrian Tan: alam mo issue sa eng?
Ram Marc: sabihin mo yan sa pari.. ang ganda ng kalabasan
Ram Marc: anu anu
Ram Marc: mukhang maganda yan ah
adrian Tan: may isang logic prof
Ram Marc: anu
adrian Tan: tawag namin sakanya GTO
Ram Marc: Onizuka?!
Ram Marc: Onizuka?!
Ram Marc: Onizuka?!
adrian Tan: odchimar
adrian Tan: wahahah
Ram Marc: nyeh
Ram Marc: kilala q un
adrian Tan: kasi ang galing niya
Ram Marc: mamaw un mag rason eh
adrian Tan: kaaway siya ng lahat ng theo prof sa eng building
Ram Marc: qng magbigay ba nmn ng simpleng tanung na "Is everything good always right?"
Ram Marc: amfufu
adrian Tan: alam mo kung bakit?
Ram Marc: bkt
adrian Tan: kasi...
adrian Tan: na disprove niya si GOD, bible, at suma theologica
Ram Marc: well ganun talga ang mangyayari qng magaling ka sa logic
Ram Marc: its inevitable
adrian Tan: kasi naman eh...ang dami kayang flaws sa religion
Ram Marc: as do all
adrian Tan: hindi! religion dapat hindi flawed dba! kasi nga GOD IS PERFECT
adrian Tan: perfect being siya dba
adrian Tan: bkit ang daming flaws...
Ram Marc: perfect nga.. religion nya hindi
Ram Marc: puta erehe pilibustero na tayo
Ram Marc: yeah!
adrian Tan: so kung mali religion niya..then why follow?
Ram Marc: wag ka na lang maingay.. maxado pang maaga para ma kick out ka sa UST
adrian Tan: why join if we already know it's wrong
adrian Tan: wahahaha
Ram Marc: Our religion is very flawed.. We even have dark secrets that could shake the very foundations of our religion
adrian Tan: i refuse to believe in nonsense...
adrian Tan: ahaha
Ram Marc: cge marami pa nmng religion dyan sa tabi tabi eh
adrian Tan: they all suck
Ram Marc: eto sagot... gumawa ka sarili mong relihiyon
adrian Tan: i don't want to
Ram Marc: tanism
adrian Tan: wahaha
adrian Tan: kasi naman eh pwede naman hindi magkaroon ng religion
adrian Tan: ahaha
Ram Marc: apelyido q me definition sa dictionary.. d pde maging religion yan haha
Ram Marc: search mo Onanism
adrian Tan: wahahah
adrian Tan: meron nga?
Ram Marc: dead serious man
adrian Tan: WTF
adrian Tan: ahahaha
adrian Tan: takte!
adrian Tan: ahahaha
adrian Tan: ayos!
Ram Marc: tapos ung ona meong din definition
Ram Marc: e2 meaning... 1. Masturbation.
Ram Marc: powta
adrian Tan: hindiiiii malupit onanism
adrian Tan: wahahaha
Ram Marc: takteng apelyido yan
adrian Tan: ahahaha
Ram Marc: masturbation ibigsabihin
adrian Tan: ahahaha
Ram Marc: the little joys and irony of life
adrian Tan: Tanzim is a faction of the Palestinian Fatah movement.
Ram Marc: powtek aztig nmn

Yes I know. I'm already becoming an idiot XD

Mind Boggling

Once more I sit in this chair
With a piece of paper and a pen
Looking at the paper I'm holding
It's full of purity... A complete blank

So I try to pass time
To avoid complete boredom
Walk, stare, jump
All this just to pass time

Then, an idea came...
A question that intrigued me for a while
Why do I continue to write
When no one else seems to read

Why do I waste my time with this senseless facts
When all of this are of no importance
Why, why, why...
It's because... It's my thing...

This is my hobby
Senseless or not, I don't care
This is what makes me somebody
And not like the rest of the mundane society

It's not bad to be different
Everyone want's to be different
You, me, everyone
We all want to be unique

Though I don't like keep my ideas to myself
I rather let someone else read it
To maybe appreciate it or criticize it
It's up to the reading audience

So another night ends with this
An answer to a senseless question
So why do I keep writing even though it's turning crap?
It's because I love it...

Whether what I write is good or crap
I'll keep writing for it's what I love to do...

They say....

They say I'm nothing without her
That I'm worthless without someone as her
They say she was like a treasure
Yet I just threw it like trash
They say it's all my fault
And that I did nothing to apologize...

What do they know?
All of them took her side and not mine
They rather listen to a babbling fool
Than someone who actually speaks with sense
She's not a treasure for me anymore
Heck, she's not even worth anything anymore...

I rather live my life without her
Rather than wreck my own fate
I lived for years without someone very important in life
Losing her would not be any different
I rather walk this path alone
At least I'm happier at my own content

They say I'm a fool to let her go
That she was the only one in my life
To hell with what they say
I don't love her and that's final
I may be a fool
But I'm happy as it is... very happy indeed

So I may see her once in a while
We'll just ignore ourselves as we go along
Sure it's hard to forget her
But having friends and family is much better
There may be a lot of fools that take her side
But what do they know? they're only pitiful fools...